Not sorry about not cleaning up

I don't want to hide the untidy evidence of existing

When I invite a friend into the mess of my daily life, I’m telling them I want them to be a part of it. I want to bring people in. Without rushing around to hide the evidence of how I move through my days. I don’t want to hide the scuffs on the wall from where we kick off our shoes. I don’t want the untidy evidence of existing to hold me back from having loved ones be a part of my life.

This is a pic of me at home. Midday on a weekend. Didn’t change my clothes. Didn’t tidy up. Just sat. A snap of life. Shared here as an invitation. An acknowledgment. I’m incredibly grateful for this online space, the connections I’ve made, the empowerment and encouragement and camaraderie I’ve found.

And I’ve got this book now, No More Mediocre, out in a few short months! I’m struggling with how to use my voice right now. I’m not sure how to show up online. I don’t know how to blend everything I want to say, including getting the word out about something I’m so excited to share. I’m passionate about what I talk about, but I have a different relationship with content making these days. I don’t feel like I can button things up in nearly 2-3 minutes. I’ve been podcasting with

Crystal Britt

every week for over a year and it’s been lovely. We host a weekly drop in gathering online and it’s a highlight of my week(you can join as a

time to lean

sub). But I don’t really want to be boiling down my points and presenting them neatly the way I’ve done in the past. I’ve got more to say. I want to tailor my message to context-something a platform of my size doesn’t really allow for. I have no control over where my videos go and no way of knowing what’s going on for the person who sees it. Everything feels so big. I want to talk and I really want to listen! I want to talk in spaces that allow for shifting and changing and viral videos don’t really allow for that.

So here I am! Inviting you into the mess! Being honest about feeling wobbly on my feet. I don’t want to wait to connect with you all until I’ve got my shit together. I just want to show up. I want to share about this very cool book that I’m excited about and I hope you’ll all read! And I’m excited about the Columbine blooming! And the goldfinches! And the small bunny we saw this morning! And reading books and substacks and texts and listening to voice notes from friends!

What are YOU excited about right now?